Fragment of Past

It’s a bit late for spring cleaning, but it’s been quite a year. I’m clearing out old stuff and making room for new. But I never want to forget some of the places I’ve been or how I felt. So it’s good to have the chance to reflect on things I thought were forgotten and trivial, but through the process of cleaning and rearranging these little ¢â‚¬Ëœtidbits’ are like ¢â‚¬ËœFragments of Past’ years waiting to be remembered.

So here’s a few things from an old address book/journal dating to the early 1990’s. Wow! I remember when recanting the ¢â‚¬Ëœpast’ would have been to remember the early 1960’s.

  • Rachael ¢â‚¬â€ takes driver’s ed with me. We found a loophole where a parent can monitor the hours behind the wheel with the minor to be applied toward Driver’s Ed course.
    • in remembering, I don’t know if that was bad or good
      • it was really hard and stressful for both of us
      • I was probably tougher on her than on others, and probably tougher than an instructor would have been
      • I hope (after years have passed) that we learned valuable lessons about how to interact together
        • I’m not sure we did¢â‚¬¦ but I like to think so!
        • We learned Leavitt women are a ¢â‚¬Ëœforce to be reckoned with, darn it ¢â‚¬â€œ I will be heard!’
        • We learned Leavitt women should never be left in closed quarters (like a car for extended periods – or on periods)
      • I love that we had time to spend together
        • Now that she is grown with her own family in another state, when I look back I cherish all the time we spent
    • Would I do it all again
      • ¢â‚¬â€ You Betcha’ in a heartbeat!!
      • Would I do it all again ¢â‚¬â€ NadaChance’in¢â‚¬¦!
  • December 27
    • words from Anita Friedman — Sunrise Fellowship
      • ” laser power of “sword” break acute radicals in body”.
      • “think of yourself looking from the throne room — ‘it is written’ “
      • “sharper than two-edged sword — like a laser — come against sickness and disease
    • Prayers from Anita concerning Sunrise
      • Sunrise to keep moving forward
      • Bob and Anita
        • Book
    • Words of prayer from Joyce in response
      • Arrows broken — strike harder til it breaks
  • January 17
    • “God kept our home SAFE thru all the quakes
      • 2 glasses, 1 saucer, 1 vase was all that broke
        • Psalm 91 was reality and IS REALITY for us. No weapon formed against us prospered.
        • Looking back — I don’t remember the glasses, saucer or vase.
          • I remember I was tormented with such devasting fear that my life had become fragments
          • Just as a ‘token breaking’ began in the natural realm, a ‘breaking’ took hold in the supernatural realm
            • Without warning, my areas of struggle began to shake and break
              • Almost too small to notice — like a glass, saucer or vase; I could feel a shattering of fear
                • quaking, quaking
                • shaking, shaking
                • breaking, breaking
                  • bit by bit
  • Six Essentials of Self Esteem —January 1994
    1. physical safety – home, work, school
    2. Emotional Security
      • entrincic worth — feel that those surrounding me cover me no matter what
    3. Identity
    4. Affiliation
      • Where do I fit in?
    5. Confidence
      • Can I care for myself?
    6. What’s it all about?
      • Sense of Mission
  • January 21, 1994
    • The Lord reminded me of all the times I’ve given water in ministry to saints and said I’ll never be without.
      • although the entry says “I’ve given” — it’s really “we’ve given”. The Lord was speaking truth to me, but the greater revelation is that Rich and I hav alwayse been ‘in this together’!!